_Being me_

Bye 2011, Hello 2012!

2012-01-01T18:13:00.001+08:00

2011 was an impt yr..really impt..
这一年让我学会了很多，但也让我发现我还是学不会很多很多..
有时候当你觉得你已经了解了某人、事、物，但事实上你根本不懂..
2011年我在思想上，处事待人上有了新的体会与感受..

我尝试了许多从来没有做过的事，我感受过更多的酸甜苦辣..
我学会了珍惜生命中的每一份感动，带着感恩的心去面对每一天
我学会了在逆境中坚强起来
我学会了凡事不要只看表面

但我始终学不会如何与某些人相处
学不会有效的控制自己的情绪
学不会我最坚持及难以割舍的那些

这一年我认识了矛盾
当你觉得坚持到底是件好事，但过分的坚持所带来的往往是伤害
当你得到向往的自由，你又会觉得不被关心
当你一怒之下说出一些气话，你以为你会很后悔，但是它已留下了阴影

我想能代表我的2011的来年感受个就是它们了吧!

希望把一切的不愉快，一切的伤痛留在2011..
就算今年真的是世界末日，我希望我不会带着遗憾到这世纪的终结
2012，重新出发，重心出发！

2011-10-29T19:41:00.002+08:00

2011-10-29T01:47:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday, Ma!!

Part n parcel of growing up!

2011-09-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

I can really understand what it means by "No pain, no gain" now..
Uni life is much more hectic than jc life.. like seriously MUCH MORE! The importance of time management becoming increasingly obvious to me.. Always having the end in mind and constantly encouraging and motivating urself to go on..basically pushing urself to ur limit.. Well, it's about what u want to do wif ur life ultimately..u want to succeed, u have to put in the effort! Sometimes, i stop n think, y m i push myself so hard? Doing things tht r so time consuming.. n not even seeing any benefits tht i can gain in short term.. But then again, i guess this is uni for u.. We are always involve in things u r passionate about and these activities u participate in becomes part of ur life, part of u! n when u happen to look back at what happened in ur life, let's say 20 yrs later, u have something worth remembering in ur life..other than just study n work! N i strongly believe that whatever shit i do now will definitely be beneficial to me in future.. my character development and exposure to career opportunities..
I have always been pushing myself.. I remember tht I used to be very very shy and not sociable at all.. but I saw the importance of forming connections wif ppl.. the importance of making friends.. I pushed myself to be more open and try to socialise more.. while this may appear to some tht i m missing the whole pt of making friends..but i beg to differ..i m not being hypocritical..i still make friends wholeheartedly! but what i m trying to drive at tht is tht, in the process of "forcing" myself to make more friends, i gain much more than what i expected.. i learnt to enjoy the whole process of making friends..Connecting wif ppl just comes naturally now..it's not a chore anymore:)
Perhaps similarly, i can turn pressure into motivation for any situation i m in! JIAYOU JIAYOU!!

$10

2011-09-14T17:27:00.001+08:00

已经很久很久没有想哭的感觉了..
但现在真的很想哭..
哭不是单单因为难过..
而是失望..
哭不是单单因为失望..
而是绝望..
也许十年后，二十年后..
会想起今天，会觉得自己很幼稚
但是至少我现在觉得这不是幼稚的表现
这是一种在乎，一种重视
十年后，我还是会记得今天的你
那种不屑的表情..

2011-08-19T21:38:00.002+08:00

Went for industry talk from mon to wed..highly enlightened by the speakers from the various industries..at least I have a better idea what to expect in each industry..Lend lease n mediacorp are cool man! Haha..

There are so many CCAs tht I want to join! Hmmm..NUSSU Public Relations unit? Career guide? Or go for audition for CAC Voice? Hmmm..

RAG2011

2011-08-13T02:11:00.000+08:00

What more can I ask for? I really enjoyed myself throughout the awesome 5 weeks, I made awesome friends, awesome seniors..OUR AWESOME IS DEFINITELY MORE AWESOME THAN ANYONE ELSE’S AWESOME!!

Really grateful for all that has happened for the past 5 weeks..if rag did not exist at all, my uni life would definitely not begin wif a blast..at least it’s not the usual beginning in pri,sec or jc, where we always go for countless academic talks..not much engagement..

I rmb e day when I went to sde for the first time of my life for Admission day..it was a rainy day n I was slightly late..i sat through the intro talk by danny..then i thought, m I gg to be some loner here? I told myself: “No. I am gg to make uni life an unique experience..memories tht will stay wif me for life..” tht’s when e seniors started talking abt NUSSU rag n flag..

They portrayed the entire event as a super rahrah kind of thing..but it’s a good chance to mingle ard right? So I signed up for both FOC n float..

What I really want to say is tht I nvr regret joining rag at all..i learnt a lot from the seniors..i get to meet my fellow freshies/course mates..MOST IMPORTANTLY TO BE PART OF THIS AWESOME TEAM OF PPL WORKING SO HARD WITH A COMMON AIM IN MIND! Although I got much lesser time to rest before skl starts than those who didn’t join rag, I guess the effort put in is all worth itJ it’s really amazing to see all the claddings falling into place n us creating something really awesome out of nothing at all..the feeling is simply overwhelming..

Towards the end of rag, I saw ppl coming more often for rag..i see more ppl getting glue-high n coffee-high..haha! n tht was when I stayed over at ID studio too..n sleeping for less than 1h on the night b4 actual rag day..walked to mbs at 3.30am (and literally window shopped)..watching ndp live broadcast at promontory as a skl..seeing fighter jets flying past us..

Perhaps rag is a unique experience to each nus student, especially to sde freshies..e support we get from each other makes everything so much better..e collective memories gathered will always bond us together..no matter where we may be for the nxt few mths, I m sure many of us will be back for rag2012 just because of how awesome rag 2011 was.. perhaps when we are back then, the feeling will be different..but there will always be something tht will remain the same- “black 41”

Yes, rag is not abt winning, it’s abt you,you,you,you,YOU!

Guardian angel

2011-08-02T17:26:00.000+08:00

是否记得守护天使的游戏
从我抽到你的卡片起
不再是一个人的回忆
或许未来有快乐也有艰辛
我会把你紧抱在怀里
永远不让你为爱哭泣
如果天空只剩最后
一颗闪烁的星
我会让它为你照亮孤寂
让幸福为你指引~

总有一天你会看到
Guardian Angel 降临
那是我的心一直在守护着你
天使它一定能够~感应~
如果天空只剩最后
一颗闪烁的星
我会让它为你照亮孤寂
让幸福为你指引~

总有一天你会看到
Guardian Angel 降临
那是我的心一直在守护着你
天使它一定能够~感应~

一首很久没听了的歌..brought back many memories..those silly n innocent days:)

updatesssssssssss!

2011-07-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

yupyup..finally back from my happening 2-3 weeks:)
had SDE FOC'11 from 23-26 Jun.. was in Akuma~Innoko! met new frens n had great fun! haha..although i felt tht we were not tht bonded.. but it's my pleasure to meet each n every one of my OG mates:)
like other camps we had lots of outdoor activities! i got to find out more abt e culture of SDE too..really appreciate tht e seniors care so much for the freshies n there r so many things tht e freshies can involve ourselves in! really helped us 2 overcome e transition from jc/poly 2 uni life:)

went genting from 28 jun- 1 jul!
took e train from tanjong pagar railway station to kl sentral..taking e train was a interesting experience:) but the horrifying part was tht there were small cockroaches onboard..i always find one right beside me when i woke up every one hour :S
there were lots of ppl at the check in place..we waited for a few hours b4 getting e hotel room..11-748:)
outdoor theme park e nxt day..
plus sneaking into e casino..oops :X
really cherish the type of service tht sg provides..when ppl keep complaining abt poor service the get from the crew in sg..perhaps they should look at e situation in other countries..oh wells..

went for bmt grad too:)
i found e songs quite lame..but i guess if i were among the recruits, i will really feel e overwhelming pride! they came so far together..complain together..get scoldings n pumpings together..it was a difficult period but each n every one of them managed to pull through! really proud of them! :))

co chalet from 5-7 jul:))
although we didnt do much stuff exclusive to chalets..i enjoyed e company i had:) sometimes it's not just abt e activities, it's abt having e right ppl ard u..
watched transformers, kbox..watching texas chainsaw massacre is a failure..totally fell asleep..lol!

up next, rag n flag!

GMA..

2011-06-19T18:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just feel like telling her :"it's time to let go..dun live in your past mistake anymore, it's time to move on :" but sometimes, it's not as easy as it seems..but i really hope she can leave her unhappiness behind.. jiayou!
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although jj didnt get the award @ GMA, i m still very proud of him!
perhaps as a singer/songwriter, what is impt is not getting an award, but instead how many ppl out there..ur fans, other singers or even ppl who dun even noe u in person but just ur song..think tht u r most deserving of the award tht u didnt get..
like what u always say, u enjoy the process of making music, n u want ur music to touch ppl..n i can say tht ur music has indeed touched many souls out there..
okay, even if there r many out there who may think tht u r not as outstanding as some other singer or actor..u have done ur best in expressing urself in the arena tht u r most passionate in..n i really proud of u for tht :D
continue to inspire many, continue to heal e wound of those scarred emotionally with the power of ur music..JM 们会一直挺你！

education

2011-05-27T16:25:00.000+08:00

after 5 days of coaching at Eureka workshop, i realised tht it's really not easy to teach pri skl kids..
i cant really rmb exactly how i was when i was in pri skl..prob not so much like those p5 i taught during e workshop?hmmm..
okay..i rmb i was a shy little kid but when i was asked to present to the class, i spoke up. kids, i noe how u feel..u r afraid tht u might embarrass urselves during presentation..but i always thought tht there might be a change in the way things r taught in skl..before the workshop, i was actually expecting kids to be more confident than how i was like back then..i mean so much emphasis on projects n being a confident speaker later part of the education..but if u dun start early, will we really be comfortable wif speaking up in class..
we abolish the streaming system, we always say tht we want a holistic education..but is all these enough when the effects r not really reflected on how the kids behave?
we say we want an inclusive society..but r kids from neighbourhood skls given sufficient support to shine as brightly as those from top skls?
i m not blaming the education system, it's how the world works ultimately..
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my mum told me this recently..when we were talking abt uni acceptance..
it started when i told her abt what sun told me..then she asked me, wouldn't it be better if u r a big fish in a pond filled wif big fish rather than a big fish in a pond wif small fishes? i think i get what she meant..in a pond wif other big fishes, u get a better environment, u get to learn how to survive despite the competitiveness..although u enjoy comfort in a pond wif small fishes, would u turn out to be a tougher fish in the end?
i dunnoe..probably i was nvr a big fish..medium fish ba..nvr a super high achiever but 还过得去的那种? i just go into the pond tht accepts me larh..i tried my best, no regrets:)

GE..

2011-05-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

1 week after GE and it's still a hot topic..hmmm..while it may appear tht ppl r less apathetic now,issit really true..we raised awareness among singaporeans about the need to be more involved in shaping a better future 4 sg..but do ppl really care?prob we r more superficial..what we care about or what we can care about is whether it affects us now and not the future..if there is no today, will there be future?
MM and SM stepping down..hmmm..what's wif so many ministers stepping down??!

2011-05-02T17:27:00.002+08:00

i m thankful..
for tht convo..
for u telling me how u feel..
for helping me sort out my thoughts n feelings..

我承认你说时我的心重重的
但我真的没事
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yay!nus:):):)

2011-04-12T17:09:00.000+08:00

我在微博上读到了这番话：单身意味着你有足够坚强，有足够耐心去等待那个值得拥有你的人..读了这番话的第一个反应是会心一笑..
有人觉得有个人分享你人生中的一切是幸福的..无可否认，与对的人分享是甜蜜的..但人生中又能遇到多少个对的人呢?遇到了又怎么知道他是对的人?与其勉强在一起，不如耐心去等待那个值得你花时间，精力，感情的人..
我想我还在等待那个对的人..
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有些男人，性格中有女人的特质；有些女人，性格中有男人的特质。
测试一下，你是纯正的男人（或女人）吗？
凡是第一眼看下图是鸭子的，就是男人特质多一点，凡是第一眼看到是兔子的，就是女人特质多一点。

RE

2011-04-04T02:00:00.000+08:00

yeah, my contract with RE ended last thrursday.. I wont consider working at RE a fantastic experience but I would say tht I really learnt a lot in these 3 months.
I still rmb my first few days with RE..literally horrible..i was under so much stress tht i dreamt of work every single day..scoldings, scoldings n more scoldings..haha..but things soon changed for e better..i got a hang of the pace at work, started closing some cases n send e right cvs..i started to enjoy myself at work, except for mon's meeting-.-
haha..got to noe more ppl through RE..fun loving n humorous bunch of ppl..i guess if there is something i will miss, it will definitely be the ppl at infocomms :) really love IT4! michelle, yvonne, caroline, jacey n gillian:):):)

2 MICHELLE~~
thank you for being such a great mentor! although u may be too 'eagle' sometimes, but i really appreciate your guidance for these 3 months :) thank you for tolerating my whinings n my imperfections!

2 yvonne!
thank you for being so loving and caring..a super friendly girl indeed..nvr see u flare up b4 ^^ i really enjoyed sitting nxt 2 u for my first 2 weeks :) although i didnt really talk to u much during my first 2 weeks, but i could feel your care n concern all these while :)

2 caroline!
take care of ur health okay! it's really great to noe you!haha!probably i should have talked to u more^^

2 jacey!
smart girl!haha..jy, contract ending in 2 weeks!n i can totally forsee tht u will be closing at more than 20k this month?! jyjyjy!

2 lai ling!
wah..extend contract!!haha!time to close some contracts yeah..haha! n stop taking so many leaves man!!haha!!

hmmmm..perhaps i will still recommend ppl to work at RE..maybe this is e right place for ppl who wants to learn a lot n not bothering much abt e pay :S haa..
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sometimes i wonder y my decisions r not at all respected. maybe u feel tht u should still have full control, but is it really so? maybe u feel tht u have e ability to make e best decisions..k, maybe u do have, but can u ensure tht u will always be e one make e right decisions? especially when u made wrong decisions tht have affected your entire life n those ard u? i m not blaming u for this, but shouldn't it be time for u to wake up n listen to suggestions and advices tht ppl try to give u?

19th

2011-03-26T09:51:00.000+08:00

8 days after my 19th birthday!
hmmm..i wasnt expecting many ppl to rmb my b'day actually. but apparently fb worked the magic..haha!! be i m still thankful to those who wished me happy birthday!love :)
十九岁的我要简单的活着:)
looking forward to the end of the month!yay!
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谢谢你教会我很多事情

2011-03-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

也许在这时候才会找到真正关心自己的人..
也许在这时候你才会发现自己的坚强、自己的脆弱..
也许在这时候勇敢的向前看才是最重要的吧..
虽然我不喜欢这种比上不足，比下有余的感觉，但我还是心存感激。so the nxt step after being grateful is really to be more practical and think abt where i go wif these..hmmmm..
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原来喜欢可以那么久，那么深..当你以为你已遗忘了，实际上只是另一个阶段的开始..

JJ!

2011-02-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

yay!<3 last sat!
went kbox wif lizhong from 11+ to 3 :) he tried to sing english songs..but we realised tht e english songs tht he listens to r damn difficult to sing! had a hard time trying to catch up wif e lyrics..oh man!haha
then we went over to heeren for jj's autograph session..oh btw, when i dropped by heeren at ard 11..there were ppl queuing there alrd! :) i m proud of jj ^^
yeah, met lizhong's frens, melissa n celine, who are jj's fans too! queued wif them for the autograph session..celine got extra concert ticket so i could go 4 jj party 5 at night!! so HAPPY! hmmmm..shook hands wif jj again:D he said 新年快乐！haha..
rushed over to scape after tht cos melissa said tht there will be a lot of ppl..but in e end we were first in the queue for public..yeah, jjfc ppl get to go in first..camp outside scape warehouse untill ard 7.20pm..jj only sang 3 songs..她说,记得 n 当你..lots of videos though..
oh btw, i saw 李腾@ stage too!
should i buy e concert ticket?

2011

2011-01-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

yeah, finally have the time to blog le..haha..
not like i m very free now..just in the mood to blog lor..

got a job at recruit express..hmmm..it wasnt as fun as expected.. desperately trying to meet expectations every day..stressed out every day.. this is just what u get working in a fast paced environment.. but i guess i was still treasure this learning opportunity.. make good use of this opportunity to find out what environment suits me best.. so tht i wont regret when i make my career choice in future:)

好快哦，已经是2011年了..
2010 过得很匆忙..
忙着读书，忙着考试
虽然很忙，但过得很充实
i m proud of myself for being able to overcome all the hurdles:)

希望2011年会过得更有意义
新感动、新体验
我希望我可以变得更坚强
我希望我可以学会体谅
我希望我可以学会保护我身旁的人..
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有些人和你有血缘关系
理当距离很近
但其实比陌生人的距离更远
说出的话伤害对方
当时无动于衷
但也许到了若干年后
就会悔不当初
后悔自己的愚昧
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2010-12-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

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2010-12-21T15:38:00.000+08:00

there r times whereby u want to say something so badly..but u lost e courage to do so.. u choose to give up not to think abt it anymore
thinking tht u wont let it bother u further..
but deep in ur heart u simply chose the easy way out..

it's not tht u dun care anymore
it's becos u dun want e outcome to be unexpected..
it's becos u dun want e outcome to hurt u..
it's becos u r still hopeful..
saying something deep from ur heart, something so true, something u hold on dearly to..is not so easy..
it depends on e situation u r in, ur perception of e ultimate outcome, etc.

u hope tht others will be ones to make e move first..but in e end, both of u chose remain where u r..to be e hopeful one..

jobs

2010-12-18T00:13:00.000+08:00

job hunting is really abt willingness to try something u nvr thought u will accomplish..keep an open heart n mind..n have the patience to wait for replies..
it's really not tht easy..

2010-12-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

seriously,distance is beauty..
if only things r kept e way they r..
一切会更好:D
y must ppl have so many secrets?
y must ppl change..

hai..my sore throat is not recovering..cannot reach high notes at kbox today:( but i dun care..i m still gg there on fri:D hehe..

记得

2010-12-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

不一样的感觉:D
anws,candice n ben,jiayou 4 auditions tmr:D

2010-12-04T14:59:00.000+08:00

n in case u r wondering who jj is dating..

她说

2010-12-04T14:42:00.000+08:00

她说音乐电影
hmmm..算是一部引人深思的短篇吧..
角色的对白的铺排还不错
但我还是觉得，结局太仓促了一点
美中不足吧！

有些人敢梦，敢于追梦
有些人急于实现梦想而忘了现实中的局限
有些人太现实，而一直被它捆绑着
两者之间的平衡点还是不容易找吧！

farewell

2010-12-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

Farewell to SA..
right.i guess i nvr regreted coming to sa..except for the a lvls part..but i really enjoyed my 2 yrs in sa..meeting interesting bunch of ppl..mugging together..having fun together..
although this 2 yrs had been rather hectic, i m really glad tht i get to try so many new stuff..
n of course forge friendships tht i treasure n cherish very much..friendships tht make me ponder..friendships tht many seem so demanding at times..
although i may be overwhelmed by things tht happened, i learnt to tell myself tht these r not just obstacles but also stepping stones to make myself a stronger person..
no matter whether there are joy n laughters, sorrows n tears, i really appreciate them..
perhaps this is what we call life.
thank you to all whom walked into my life this 2 yrs:) i love u all!
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最近真的发生了很多事，令我真得有点措手不及..令我对人与人之间的相处有点失望..人与人之间为什么不能真心对待呢？真心的付出真的那么难吗？我一直不想去想，但我真的可以做到吗？

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i was reading this article abt jj n his gf..really happy for him! he found someone tht he loves n loves him..she took care of him when he had serious influenza n had to be hospitalised..
jj,要幸福哦:D (random)

plans

2010-11-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

yeah, a levels finally over! hmmmm..but i havent feel e joy as yet..
okay..need to go out more!!
"studying" wif jk n sun at coffeebean just now..
actually watching them discuss their bio only^^
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well,A's are really different from O's
really different..
e worst 20 days in my life!
i m just not confident in any of e papers..
up to a point whereby i dun even feel like looking at any of my papers anymore
i dun have to anws:)
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right, time to plan for the upcoming 3 month break le..

Dec
1st-kbox wif clique
2nd-kbox
3rd-shopping wif yj,hw,wy
(up to this pt of time, i will meeting dogion for 3 days straight..sian of her alrd)
4th-scape flea market
5th-shopping wif mum
7th-shop wif sun
9th-prom
10th-kbox wif sun
26-28-genting trip (tentative)
others: learn GUITAR!

Jan
work!
okay must start sending out my resume le..but the prob is, what m i suppose to include in my resume?okay, go check!

singapore hit awards!jj lin!

2010-10-30T09:49:00.000+08:00

最佳演绎男歌手实至名归！

prelims...thankful

2010-10-02T13:45:00.000+08:00

in just like what..2 weeks? to farewell assembly..
it wont be the last i will see my friends but it will definitely be the last time i will see ALL my classmates..perhaps gg out together:D (haha..but e thing is many of them start disappearing alrd..so yarh..
when was the last time we went out together man?hai..
hopefully the buffet will be on and everyone can come:)
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there are many times tht i try to be optimistic n try to comfort others when they r unhappy..be it academic wise or just life..
yeah,i try to motivate them n ask them to look at the brighter side of things..
but sometimes, i may be even more pessimistic than them..abt myself..
this is exactly how i felt abt prelim results..when i received the msg abt math results..
i knew tht i wont do well 4 p1 n i felt upset abt it..ever since i finished tht paper..
i was upset, but i chose to keep it to myself..okay, i only complain a bit to my frens larh..in e joking manner..i didnt want to affect their feelings..especially when there was gsc after tht..
okay, back to the msg, only 4 ppl in e class got the msg to go to lt2 for last mon's lect..although it was expected,i was still really upset..but i didnt tell anyone at first..n i even comforted my fren who got the msg too..yeah, n e only person i told after tht is yuji,cos she was msging me abt some other stuff..
not tht i m going to take anything related to math in future(i think) but i always pinned high hopes on my math results for every single exam..
i m not good at expressing my deepest feelings n i m not used to sharing them wif others..
there r many things tht i cannot say..n eventually they became things tht i choose not to say..
maybe if i m not brought up having to keep so many secrets, my life would be so different..
but over the years, i learnt to open up more..i learnt to not put all the burdens on my shoulder..i learnt to share my thoughts wif my friends..n most importantly, i learnt to talk to my mum abt my problems..n she shares wif me abt hers at work too..
i m really thankful tht she comforted me when she caught me crying to myself..我不轻易在她面前流入我的心情..i thought she will blame me for not working hard enough..but i guess she knew tht i worked hard for math..she told me tht my p2 will be fine n my ultimate goal is the a lvls anyways..i was really touched,n she gave me the courage to press on more than anything or anyone else..
so prelim results so far,
math:D (i need 1% to C, ms chan, can u just give me 2 marks?!)
phy:U (i didnt really study for much actually..but tht is not an excuse!time to wake up!)
chem:E (passed for the first time since msa 1 in j1:@ i m thankful..haha..but i aimed 4 a D actually)
gsc: C (met target^^)
GAMBETTE!
oh, i m thankful for the recent chats wif nette too:)
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when i choose not to say certain things, pls give me time..i will do it when i have enough courage n when the time is right:)

2010-09-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

just finished watching jj's love and music dvd:D he nvr fails to amaze me wif each n every of his performance..jiayou!up n on!

first time i hear him pray..

2010-09-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

many things happened recently..not exactly physical changes, more of..erm..emotional and psychological ones..
新体验，新感受
这段时间，我学会尊重..我学会凡是顺其自然就好，不要强求..我学会只要尽力，无论结果如何，我都会快乐..我学会珍惜我拥有的，学会感谢感激..
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love 音乐实录 <3

2010-09-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

找到孤独，就不怕寂寞..

你现在想着谁，有没有和我相同的感觉..

2010-09-03T19:54:00.001+08:00

it just got to be u to inspire..
up n on!

2010-08-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

Right.GP down, more to go!
chiong ah!
pls let me go~

2010-08-20T20:14:00.001+08:00

song to motivate me through these 80 days:D

For when i m weak,then i m strong..
我脆弱，却永不退缩

2010-08-07T23:52:00.001+08:00

someone told me something tht i cant help but to agree to it..yeah..it is so true..
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~Girl you know I miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life Oh Oh~

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts Woo
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

Don't keep telling me these words Oh no
You don't know how much it hurts Woo
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was Wu~

I will go on without her Wu~
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song Woo
Oh yeah I know I don't know
Baby I am know I'am a fool

And I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

This is our song without a soul
Now that you're gone
What's left of us in this song

me

2010-07-31T15:22:00.004+08:00

life is monotonous nowadays..it just revolvs ard study, eat n sleep..yeah, n occasional treats like these..

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something is just different abt the ppl ard..the enthu ppl becoming less enthu n the less enthu ppl becoming enthu..y? i m just getting more n more disappointed..wif myself n wif the things happening..perhaps this is the reality and we all have to face it..yeah, who doesnt want to lead a simple life? but it is just tht we r too bothered by the things we desire or care abt..perhaps e pace we r gg at is determined by others n not so much controlled by ourselves..

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the true self :D

official smdgestore opening!

2010-07-17T14:44:00.000+08:00

i think my heartbeat went up to 200+ per min yesterday! i was nervous..but i presented myself as who i m:D
yeah..n i will definitely remember yesterday!love love love~
was queuing outside SMUDGEstore yesterday..doing normal distribution tut b4 he was there..haha..i guess it was worth the wait ba..at least i got my first SMG product:)

sticky sweets!

talked to jj a bit..in english..got him to get me the 2nd design of the badges..he recommended some accessories to me..asked him for suggestions abt which one to buy..great! haha.. n all these would not have happened if not for the problems tht happened wif the mode of payment of the person in front of me:):):)talked to him abt SA too:) good frens wif ms k yeah!lol~
oh..i even talked to jj's dad!haha..met him at the lift lobby when i got out of the store..very friendly:)
开心1000年！
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grades..
same as bt1so far..howhowhow?! i need to start revision again!i must believe i can do it..
still moving under gunfire~

to jj

2010-07-02T22:05:00.001+08:00

给我心中永远的王子
JJ你真得很棒！JM们都看见了你的努力..有些时候得奖是需要天时、地利、人合的..这次遇到在你金曲奖演出后才知道你唱得好的评审真的不是你的错..JJ 加油！你在我们心中已是金曲歌王了！JM们期待你的好音乐！
hmmmm..maybe god thinks tht it is not time for u to get e title yet..anws,thanks for being so appreciative of every applause u receive..thanks for bringing such motivating music to our lives..thanks for having such great passion for whatever u do, be it music or fashion..thanks for touching e lives of each n every JM...yeah, thanks for being just u..
u r really great:)
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3 more papers to go!
chiong ah!

2010-06-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

in memory of mj..KING OF POP!

2010-06-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

it is not tht i dun want to try..
i m just tired of trying alrd..
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i was watching a documentary abt a mother elephant n a baby elephant..e mother elephant suffered from a bullet injury n collapsed..e baby elephant tried very hard to wake his mum up..he refused to leave his mum or even allow any villager to go near his mum..he stayed put beside his mum to protect her..
e villagers knew tht they needed e baby elephant to leave b4 they can carry out investigation abt who killed e mother elephant..they fed the elephant, showered it wif care n love..n slowly led it up e lorry to bring it to somewhere else..when e baby elephant realised tht he was leaving his mum, he howled n tried to jump off e lorry..
i just dunnoe why hunters bear to hunt down these protected animals just for the sake of their own survivial..can they imagine someone more superior than them kill them n separate them from their children, forever?! it is not just abt destroying the natural habitat..it is abt destroying the relationships..breaking up the animals' family n yeah, creating barriers btw mankind n animals! dun think tht we r god to the animals n their survivial is at our mercy..
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很有感觉的一首歌:)

nice songs!!!

jj

2010-06-05T15:32:00.001+08:00

this is damn funny!!!haha..enjoy!

omg! jj was in Ms K's class? wow!

jj won a book prize for art!so talented:D

ahahaha!!!!!

gosh!he looks older than liang wen fu!o.O oops! anws, this photo is taken when he was practising piano during his time with chinese society in sa!

2010-06-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Opportunities are meant to be grabbed..
yeah..if only i realised tht it is an opportunity in the first place..
i thought we share the same thought..
but i guess i was wrong..

前天收听了933的抽屉里的情书..我为那女生感到骄傲:)很多时候，我们以为两个人不能相爱是自己的错..但或许那是因为我们并没有了解整个状况。两个人的相知、相识到相恋，真得很不容易..但是要维持一段感情需要的是双方的珍惜..若其中一方累了，结果往往只有一个吧..

2010-06-04T00:03:00.000+08:00

2010-05-30T17:51:00.000+08:00

2010-05-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

i will work hard now n get one of these caps after A's :D:D:D

whch means i have to save up too..

yeah?

2010-05-28T18:48:00.001+08:00

my mum held my hand when we were walking to e temple from e bus stop:D
haha..
many of e times, it is e small things tht e right ppl do tht makes ur day..sometimes, it is e things tht the wrong ppl dun do tht makes ur day too!yeah?
i love e feeling of holding hands wif my mum n walking on e streets..it is so hmmm.. heartwarming? yeah!i feel safe ba^^
i was looking through my frens' photos on facebk..hmmm..thoughts provoking..i realised tht our class started out quite close actually..we had fun during our one n only class outing..we had fun finishing up birthday cakes at light speed..those were wonderful times:)
but what happened to us now?so segregated..just hanging out in our cliques..girls sitting at one side n guys sitting at e other side..limited interaction..
r we too focused on our studies n neglecting our friendships?r we taking our friendships for granted?where is tht sense of..sincerity when we all had when we first met each other? where?
it is never too late to revive our friendships..jy!

this is so cool!if only i found out abt this a bit earlier!hehe~
http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/7257032
haha..da best!
fan to jj:u made some of our hearts stopped!
jj to fan: i hope it beats again..

awwww!!!!
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~好久没有吹微风的晚上
我们看着山下都市灯光
你说快乐和自由是穷人的天堂
这种想法我很喜欢Oh—

你要我闭上眼睛想像
有我看不见的一个远方
你说地球是乐园要用心去游览
这种说法多浪漫

心在飞
心在飞
路很长
路很长
我们是彼此的避风港
听着你
i believe
聊到从前和未来
你心里所有的梦跟我很像
Oh you light up my life
所以我也希望我们心中频率都一样
梦加点感觉
思念装上翅膀
爱是无限可能的飞翔

Oh—You light up my life
我想让你分享
我们心动时分的梦想
这是一个开始
还是一种分享
未来正在等待不是吗~

~lydia
迷离的眼眶
为何流浪
心碎的海洋
受了伤
连微笑都彷徨
gypsy女郎
为谁而唱
你会看见雾
看见云
看见太阳
龟裂的大地
重复着悲伤
他走了带不走
你的天堂
风干后只留下
彩虹泪光
他走了你可以
把梦留下
总会有个地方
等待爱飞翔~

^^

~想念你的笑
想念你的外套
想念你白色袜子
和你身上的味道
我想念你的吻
和手指淡淡烟草味道
记忆中曾被爱的味道~

farewell!

2010-05-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

attended co farewell last evening..
was late 4 farewell actually..haha..cos we were trying to write cards for our juniors:Dhehe..very last min but it still shows tht we really appreciate e presence of each n very one of u!
had a great time there:)haha..was controlling the ipod n laptop to play chinese songs throughout e entire farewell:D songs like 恋爱ing, 说好的幸福呢(to make ppl cry^^),恋爱达人，精武门，看见什么吃什么，说谎，n of course many jj's songs!had fun singing e songs wif munyee,calvin,phoebe,ah kai n ko!!!
yeah..so farewell started off wif untangled..do we still need to break e ice?y r we playing an icebreaker game?haha!musical chairs was really hillarious>_<
yup..so e best part of e entire farewell was to camwhore^^ e way huqin take phtotos like there is no tmr!
thank you juniors for e card n balloon n ah kai for e badge:)
to huqin juniors: i will miss all of u de! thanks alicia for creating e huqin grp n fanclub:) but it would be better if e grp is called Li Lian n not Li-Li-Li-Li Lian yeah?haha
to 09/10 co ppl: although there r times where we r really fed up wif e way things work or wif e tiresome practices, we r all in this together!haha..i just hope tht we can keep in touch n yeah, study hard for A's! jiayou jiayou!
to all juniors: all e best for syf! continue to work hard..e journey towards syf will be a tough one..but whatever it is, dun give up! treasure e friendships forge during ur time in co..cos these memories will make up a major part of ur jc life!
圣初华乐，one family unbroken!
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我喜欢下雨时坐在窗旁的感觉^^

2010-05-15T18:31:00.001+08:00

Rapture was great!
i guess i enjoyed the concert quite a bit..haha..although i was falling asleep at some parts..but i was quite impressed sa dancers;D
yup!e kids are damn cute!!!!!
well done, ppl!
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我一直在想
一直在不停的想
真的不适合
为什么一切都是单向呢？

2010-05-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

:D

2010-05-08T09:48:00.000+08:00

这星期好快过哦..
感觉上是这样啦..haha
life without co is so carefree..finally gg home when e sun is still up:D
life is gooooooooodddddd..yeah..
anw, all e best to all SA dancers:D
last weekend 4 ur big day!woohoo~
jyjy!
anw, who can go rapture wif me?>_<
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我很喜欢，很喜欢这种感觉
没有负担，可以无忧无虑的喜欢
没有特别刻意去做什么
保留着现在的美好，珍惜每一刻

所以我决定了不说出来
就让这一切的一切让时间去淡化它

CO

2010-05-03T14:52:00.001+08:00

yes..CO concert is finally over!
although we havent officially stepped down, e end of CO still marks the end to my CO life..
concert was great..seriously..i enjoyed myself very much!i wont say tht it is a really flawless concert..but it is indeed e little imperfections tht made it a really perfect one!haha..
my 1 1/2 yrs in CO had been an enriching one..although many of the times,many of us are really tired or even sick of the numerous co practices leading up to our performances, it is also through all these practices tht stronger friendships r forged. yeah..i wont even realised e existence of some ppl in his skl if there wasnt co..
i guess if there is something else other than the music experience i took away from my time with saco..it would be friendships..i totally agree wif mdm hue tht co had been a platform for us to forge deep friendships (but not tht part tht she expects us to donate money juts because of this:P) i will always remember tht memorable times when the co members crap together..laugh at each other for our yin zhun>_< laugh with each other when someone does something really hillarious..frown together when there is practices on every other day..slack together when we r really sick of practising..scream together when we r gg crazy wif the fast parts..haha..those great memories^^
i wanna thank each n every one in co..especially those from percussion during syf period n present huqin!

HU QIN~
thank you brenda for always offering me 1 grain of rice when i want to go to ur house for dinner..anws, where is my one grain of rice?
thank you alicia for being so pro in gao hu n keeping me "entertained" (more of disturbed with her high pitched gao hu) for e past 5 months..meow~
thank you melvin for errrr..being so vulgar?oops! no larh! erm..for trying to teach me the right way to play the fast parts:D
thank you natalie for being such a great junior, i will always remember ur laughters!
thank you gorby for being jeannette's good fren!haha..i dunnoe what is the link larh.but still~
thank you allan for drinking the night b4 co prac..so tht i can always laugh at u for not being sober:P
thank you yuji for keeping me company b4, during n after co and for all the silly things u do tht make my day and and and for enlightening me abt how some fruits grow!ahahaha:D:D:D
thank you irene for being so go in er hu n i can always depend on u for gong fa n tempo!
thank you angella for being such a great fren! although i havent been talk to u>_<
thank you jesline for being such a great fren too!
thank you li seah for being such a great company:)
thank you munyi for being such a great junior! crescent ftw!woohoo!~
thank you valerie for laughing at all the jokes i try to crack:D
thank you calvin for always suaning me, haiiiiiiiiiiii:P
thank you phoebe for being so beefy! n always bullying me..always being so spastic...n always being so vulgar n mentally sick wif MELVIN! u 2 r really compatible!hehe..
thank you priscilla for being so good in er hu n giving me stress..nonono..motivation to practise hard for concert!

n former percussion~
thank you zi bo for studying wif me when we dun have to play during combine^^
thank you jing li for joining co wif me:D OG 6 love love love
thank you boon siang for making me so speechless sometimes..n teaching me the reality of being in co..
thank you jason for being such a smart senior!90 rank pointer!n for guiding me, trying very hard to get me to get me beat correct:P
thank you eileen for being a great senior n talking to us during breaks etc..
yeah n thank you KO for guiding me when i m in percussion..n gg wif me for dinner after every co prac since last yr..motivating me when i feel down..making me amazed by ur percussion skills but making me laugh at u for ur odd way of playing er hu in the cello way..yah so for making my life in co so enjoyable! i will miss all e dinners wif u n kevin..n jingkai n yuji occassionally:D
n of course, i want to thank kevin, kai tai, both jeremy's, christine, wei yun, jac, xin yi, lidu, lisa, bao bao, zhi wen, jessica, jingkai, olive, krishnan, cher xu, pei zhen,new friends zhao rui n kinren, she ling lao shi, mr tan n all others whom made my co experience a complete one..i love u all!
life is like a novel..e end of co is like putting a full stop n beginning wif another chapter of my life..which is to study like crazy for A's..jiayoujiayou!

2010-04-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

5 days to concert!

2010-04-17T21:32:00.000+08:00

i guess this week ended on a sad note..
i thought i knew tht i would get B for PW..i thought i would accept whatever results i got..
but i guess i was wrong..
i expected more..
yeah, on the way up to C302, i told myself "it's okay to get a B...there r so many ppl getting Bs...so dun be so upset over it.." i was quite calm when i saw my results..my classmates were cursing n swearing at _________..i was really quite calm..but it was up to e pt when i called my mum to tell her the results..when i heard her voice, i cried. i havent even told her my results at tht pt of time!she didn't even blame me for getting a B..moreover, she didnt noe tht i was getting PW results..when i told her i got a B, she was like"oh okay"..then she went on to tell me to eat more during lunch because i had rehearsal till 9+ on fri night etc.
i dun remember crying over results..perhaps i was more accepting larh..hmmmm..
i really wanted to blame________for causing our entire class for not getting a single A..but to think abt it, if we r really really deserving of tht A, no matter what kind of teacher we have, we would still be able to ace in tht subject..i shouldnt blame __________..afterall, he is new=as lost as us..
to all those who didnt do as well as expected for PW: if u really put in a lot of effort into PW n did ur best alrd, but proud of urselves..dun think abt PW alrd, concentrate on other subjects..输在起跑点不代表永远的失败！大家加油！

love!

2010-04-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

since the past week started out to be really boring...i was thinking abt what i should blog abt..u see, mon ended late cos of CO, tue ended cos of co again..then wed ended late cos of co AGAIN!hai..not tht i hate co but i guess it is a bit too much..monotonous lor..keep doing e same thing over n over again..

hmmmm..but i think i never regretted joining co ba..
i had always wanted to join a music-related cca ever since pri skl..i always remember tht in my pri 4 class,99% of the students knew how to play piano..i wanted to learn to play an instrument other than recorder too..haha! i never thought tht i would learn to play a chinese instrument though..but i guess it is still sort of a dream come true!:D

hmmmm..yeah..
wed was sports day..was helping out at the finishing line..watching ppl run..cheering for friends n runners from LOYFATT:D

great!
yeah..i was saying e past week STARTED out to be boring...butbutbut, it ended as a rather joyous one:D OB finally uploaded e photos of fans wif jj!!haha..

this is my current desktop wallpaper!yayness:D

religious

2010-04-02T18:28:00.002+08:00

i feel so religious nowadays..went for life concert last night n went to temple this morning..hmmmm..maybe i need more miracles in life..i need more strength from god to press on..i need answers to things tht r happening..i need something to fill in the empty gap in my life..
sometimes we just need somethings we cannot even see to encourage us..simple encouragement..
can i leave the disappointing bt results behind n move on?
can i just leave the memories behind n face reality?

happy birthday:)

2010-03-27T15:06:00.000+08:00

~不管多少个一百天
你都让我很有感觉
你说的一声加油
让我的一切更美好~

JJ, happy birthday!!

不管是一百天后还是一千年以后，我会继续支持你的^^
加油！
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bt finally over..
no comments.
just dun even mention abt it..
hai....

have been studying at starbucks these few days..either alone or wif jeannette:) cannot study at home larh..keep wanting to fall asleep at ard 2pm..haha! nice ambience at starbucks but it just too cold at times>_<

a period of realisation..
i realised who i really want to treasure, cherish or even protect..
i realised who really will treasure, cherish or protect me..
i realised tht sometimes it is just illusion..
what i thought it is may not be what it actually is..
it's all in the mind~

Earth hour tonite

happy birthday!

2010-03-18T10:11:00.000+08:00

我的意思不是我不珍惜
而是我更重视你

生日对于一个人来说有什么意义呢？
小时候的我期待生日的到来..
我享受妈妈为我唱生日歌的感觉:)
但渐渐地我开始质问起生日原本的意义
生日似乎是一种形式
它只是庆祝我的诞生吗？

许多时候，我们盲目的去庆祝自己的生日
忘了其实这一切的快乐是建立在一个给予我们无私的爱与关怀的母亲的痛苦上
3月18日
她用自己的性命，迎接我的生命

是她发出的光芒让我懂得怎么走出黑暗
是她的爱感动了我
是她的关心温暖了我的心
我感激她为我做的一切
我感激她对我的包容
我感激她是我的支柱

这十八年来
日子并非一帆风顺
她没有想过放弃我

所以在这一天
我决定了
我会爱她一辈子
一直牵着她的手
就想她牵着我的手一样
一直走下去

3月18日是我们之间缘分的见证^^

2010-03-17T14:04:00.002+08:00

有时候，人生中就是需要更多的感动..

不求回报的付出..
加油！
Looking forward to 28 March :D

2010-03-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

tiring but entertaining week..

hmmmm.. cross country!hmmm..reached ecp at ard 8 i think..okay..practically walked the whole 3.6km..i realised tht i actually walk fast than i run..maybe i should consider walking like 4 rounds n running 2 rounds during 2.4km 4 NAPFA..haha!ate at jack's place wif yuji after tht..yummy yum yum

service learning @ PAP potong pasir kindergarten! my childhood memories started coming back to me when i entered the kindergarten:D yeah..i was from PAP too:)))haha..i still remember gg 4 comp lessons back then..using e Ednoland software..the characters in the software-bobo, jojo, sue, etc..i was quite surprised tht they still using e same software..wah..12 yrs alrd eh!

anw, we went to e nursery class first..n started singing b'day song for 2 of kids there(erika n shafika)..hmmmm..our games didnt really work out..partly because it was too difficult 4 them n they were too shy to do what we asked them to..n when they have the courage to act out the animal we asked them to act, all of them end up doing the fish gesture!!i wonder y..maybe their teacher thought them tht fish swims like tht..haha!so cute^^

then we went over to e k2 class..wah!boys there were super hyperactive!!haha..okay larh..some of our games worked this time round..they even wanted to play heart attacked..wah..i was like "u all noe how to play heart attack?!?!?!?!?!" i only learnt tht in upper pri!!haha..

there was this girl called genelle who sat down quietly while e others hopped ard..so i went to askher y she looked so sad..she just stared at me..i was like"okay..so what m i suppose to do?" well, i continued talking to her larh..n finally she told me y she wasnt playing wif e rest..she actually complained to me tht the boys are very noisy when their teacher is teaching, so she is quite irritated cos she wont be able to learn effectively in this way..okay, if she was an older kid, i will tell her..girl, get used to it..haha!but of course i didnt tell her tht larh!she is only k2!!

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somehow, i feel tht many aspects of the education system is pushed to a later age..i dunnoe whether this is a good sign..i really dunnoe.

i mean i was looking at the posters n things pasted around their classroom..really simple stuff..plus, i didnt really see any posters wif chinese words, except for "老师的厕所">_< hai..i remember myself learning how to write words like 苍蝇，蟑螂,etc in k2..I AM SERIOUS!!i remember my mum waking me up early in e morning n ask me to write those words wif hell lot of strokes..it was really tough back then. but i guess i m grateful tht my mum actually see e importance for me to be exposed to chinese..yeah..

gp bt nxt week
co camp nxt week

2010-02-27T11:14:00.000+08:00

圣安德烈初级学院语文部将于今年再次举办全国校际中文词曲创作比赛。主要目的是为提高学生对词曲创作的兴趣及发掘我国在这方面的人才。今年是我们第七次举办这项比赛了，在前几届的比赛中，参赛者的反应都非常热烈。他们才华横溢，使比赛的水准不断提高，这个现象实在令人鼓舞。与往年不同，今年的比赛将增设一个奖项，即最佳谱曲奖。主办单位将提供一首词，让参赛者谱曲，最优秀的作品将获得上述的奖项。此外，今年我们也首次接受在籍理工学院学生的报名，比赛将分成中学与初院/高中/理工学院两组。比赛形式包括七月初的遴选及七月底的大决赛。有关比赛的规则和报名表格，请下载下列的文件。特别值得一提的是，为配合此次比赛，本院将于2010年4月16日下午4时举办一个词曲创作讲座，主讲者是本地音乐界知名人士李伟菘先生。他将和同学们分享词曲创作的心得，入场是免费的。欢迎有兴趣的同学们踊跃出席，负责老师请填妥回条，并于2010年 4月 7日之前传真至 62850037。
活动：词曲创作讲座（李伟菘先生主讲）日期：2010年4月16日（星期五）时间：4 pm地点：圣初第二讲堂（LT2）

hmmm..i was looking through the competition dates..july eh..very near exams..anw, need to write the entire song wif the melody..so i dun think i can take part in the competition..but i want to go for the talk!!hehe:D

2010-02-20T18:25:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to all!haha...正月初七-人日嘛！
okay..i realised tht i really look forward to ME lessons nowadays..really..in a short span of 2 months, ms du taught me alot..not only in chem but also character wise..
她所教我的东西已远超越那些教过我两三年的老师．．i learnt to be more appreciative of the ppl ard me..there are things tht i take for granted or are rather laid back when handling certain issues..she did not spell it out explicitly how one should behave..to be exact she did not even intend to make u think in a certain way.. but she is just so influencial! i really cannot remember even one cme lessons in raffles or crescent or me lessons in sa whereby everyone in class is actually listening attentively to the teacher..
sometimes it is not tht she is concern abt us tht makes her so great or whatsoever..it is e way she leads her life..e control she have over her life!
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人生就是需要更多的感动！

Another day has gone

I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone

Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone...

cny cum v day!

2010-02-14T17:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CNY N V DAY!

yeah, n happy b'day to ben n clement too:D

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i dunnoe how u feel..but i guess i dun want to noe..
pls dun try to take away those momeries..
i really treasure them..
give me some time..
i noe i can do it~

2010-02-12T19:44:00.002+08:00

很累的一周..
very sleepy during lectures this week..dunnoe y..hmmmm..a lot of things happened this week..up to a pt tht i dunnoe where to start from..new discoveries, sequentials from last week, etc.there r so many things to handle..simply overwhelming!
i m really glad tht i have great friends who are always there for me when i need them e most..even if there is nothing much tht they can do to help me wif e situation, i can still sense tht they care for me and want to help me..it is e thoughts tht counts.
total defence charades..i realised tht it was e first time i speak to the entire j2 cohort through the mike!hmmm..
senior meets junior picnic was...hai..10S09 not enthu enough larh..guys all very shy!so we kept talking to them, then their response were like "okay larh", "ohhh.." they have total strength of 26, 19 guys n 6 girls only! e whole class takes PCME.. oh, i have to say that the guys in 10S09 are way better looking then the guys from my class..oops! haha..anws, i cant remember their names liao..haha..n i dun think i remember their faces too!>_<
oh no..their ct is andrew tan..good luck to them man!hope tht they wont get him for pw!
CNY performance was better than expected..still have lots of room for improvement but keep up e good job ppl!
this week is really worth reflecting upon:)
ko, jiayou..

Amazing

2010-02-07T15:28:00.000+08:00

Amazing week..
there are times in life when u will definitely find amazing ppl in life..in the past, i didnt really believe tht i will..partly because i grew up in an environment where everyone ard me is "protected"..some of us take things for granted..some of us dunnoe how to empathise with ppl when they face certain troubles.monotonous life!
but as many years passed by, i was given the opportunity to meet many more ppl from different backgrounds..the discovery of many amazing ppl!
often, we indulge ourselves in self-pity..thinking abt y some unpleasant things happen to us..when problems arises, we think tht it is the worse thing tht can happen to anyone..however, in reality, there are so many ppl out there who faced more severe problems than us..many of them did not give up..they treat these problems as experiences and became stronger day by day..these ppl are really amazing!
sometimes,u feel tht u have found the best of all things..but actually it may not be like what presume..

我希望你幸福尽管你并不爱我

你常常说我很完美

没人能取代我给的一切

我就以为我努力更完美

我们就会永远

完美并不美我们多虚伪

你让我的好变成一种罪

完美并不美当你爱了谁

我的完美也只是不完美

后来你说我太完美

值得更好的陪在我身边

你不是我你怎么能体会

你有多么珍贵

完美并不美我们多虚伪

你让我的好变成一种罪

完美并不美当你爱了谁

我的完美也只是不完美

我希望你幸福尽管你并不爱我

完美并不美我们多虚伪

你让我的好变成一种罪

完美并不美当你爱了谁

我的完美成了罪

完美并不美我们多虚伪

你让我的好变成一种罪

完美并不美当你爱了谁

我的完美也只是不完美

2010-01-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

hmmmm..
there are some things in life tht u just wont have the answer for..cliche..but very true..at least i really felt this way in the past week!
many of the times, we want to be in control..we want to decide what we want..but we often feel 力不从心!but is it really so? or are we just looking for something to blame upon and escape from the problem?
when we were young (i mean younger..haha!), everything seems to be so simple..we r not afraid of showing our true feelings..we speak what we think..but overtime, life became more complicated..there is so much we have to think or care abt..

那时我们总有好多话
什么事都可以讲
我的爱情比你早
却一直放在心上
后来你们之间的变化
我不想再多说话
经过了相遇挣扎
我还是无法将他放下
那是多久后的事了
有一天你突然问我
在那个时候是否也爱着他

我也很想他我们都一样
在他的身上曾找到翅膀
只是那时的他
是因为你而开始飞翔

我也很想他在某个地方
我少了尴尬你少了肩膀
而夏天还是那么短
思念却很长
还记得那年我们三人许下的愿望
星星骗了我们我们却因此上了一课
成长必修的学分
我们都一样

2010-01-23T16:04:00.000+08:00

娜鲁娃（念起来的时候= na-lu-wan）——台湾原住民九大族（排湾族、阿美族、卢凯族是大家比较熟悉的）的一个共同词汇。

台湾原住民，俗称“山地人“（对应古早俗称“平地人“的外来汉族），他们的语言属於“玻璃尼西亚系“(polynesian)，相较于希腊、罗马、埃及、中国等的古文明，发展没有那麽深远，文字比较简单。许多字音，是多重意义、共用的。

娜鲁娃，有点类似夏威夷的ALOHA，可以是问候语，亲爱的XX或是宝贝。

一般，在情歌裏头经常会听到用“娜鲁娃“来称呼心爱的人或憧憬的人，所以大家会以为娜鲁娃就一定是“美女”，其实未然，“娜鲁娃“也可以延伸为对大地、山林、长辈、小孩的爱。

林俊杰的“妈妈的娜鲁娃”，写的其实是从一个小孩的眼中看世界，小孩是妈妈的娜鲁娃（宝贝），而人类都是大地（妈妈）的娜鲁娃（宝贝）~

城市裏住太久的人，有时候会忘记人和大自然的亲密关系，老是跟时间赛跑，想要改变环境。

而自小在山上长大的原住民，对於山林、大地却有一种最自然的“共生”情感，这首歌主要是希望唤起大家对大自然关怀，因为我们每一个人都是地球的“娜鲁娃”！

taken from baidu.com

week 3!

2010-01-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

MSA week is finally over!ahahaha..
hmmmm..i just have the feeling tht this week is much better than last week..maybe because i have gotten used to skl life once again after the break:) good.
i can sense tht nxt week will be a busy week again..(is this a trend?alternate hectic weeks!)mon got lessons till 1730 then orientation rehearsal straight after tht..e learning on tue..orientation performace on thurs..dieee..
oh ya. i want to take part in the song writing competition but dunnoe e details..shall find out after this :P
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其实表白是很甜蜜的啊..它是一种承诺，一种坚持，一种勇气..but there are just some things in life tht we dun have the courage to say it out..probably it is due to our personal experiences which may or may not be related to e issue. or maybe we r just not confident enough..
~still moving under gunfire
till the morning light
n sunlight will shine on me:)

go!

2010-01-16T15:13:00.000+08:00

okay..it is only the first week of skl n it seemd like 1/2 a yr passed.. hectic timetables..agrhhh..
just feel tht last yr's open house was much more fun leh..
time to start those engines again:Djiayou!
haha!
hmmmm..there seemed to be a lot of ppl spreading gospel nowadays..i wonder y..maybe because there were so many natural disasters nowadays..but isnt it a bit late to only start relying on God's help when undesirable things alrd happened? if u really believe in him, u should do so even before u need his help!
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我想很多事情我们都把它变成一种习惯了，不懂得珍惜..
沉溺在若有似无的感觉中..
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1ST HURDLE OF THE YEAR, HERE I COME!

2010-01-07T19:20:00.002+08:00

I REALISED THT I REALLY HAVE TO WORK VERY HARD.

conclude 2009!

2009-12-31T16:44:00.000+08:00

2009..2009.. Right, last day of 2009..好快哦..Time to conclude this hectic but fulfilling year..我一直相信，十七岁对于每个人都很重要..a transition yr i would say..yup..I have to say tht i have changes quite a bit throughout this year. At the beginning of this year, I was really overwhelmed by the challenges tht awaits me. from secondary school to a junior college. Not only that i began to face problems tht never bothered me tht much b4.. pressures from many aspects of my life..Be it studies, friends or even family.
really glad to meet new friends this yr:D be it from og, cg , co or friends' friends..haha..i appreciate each n every friendship forged^^ i believe tht affinity brought us together thus i definitely cherish every moment i have wif u ppl:)i m thankful for all the memories tht we share..it's through all these experiences with u all tht made my life more meaningful!就算我和这些朋友有时会有一些冲突,i still believe tht this is part n parcel of life n i m grateful for it:) cos these made me a stronger person..
tried many new things this yr! in the past, i always had the mentality tht i m incapable of doing many things, even b4 trying to do it..but in this yr, i realised tht one can acheive many amazing things tht u never thought u would..if u r willing to give urself a chance n put in 200% of hard work into it, nothing is impossible!Believe in urself, cos if u dun,no one would!
jj has always been my source of motivation..i must mention him at the end of this post!
haha..
k..i noe tht 2009 had been a hard yr for jj..having to face the risk of not being able to sing n some disputes in his company..gg through all these is not easy..he mentioned tht thank his family ,friends n fans for giving him so much support during his tough times..perhaps, i just want to say tht i want to thank him for being so strong n regain confidence, be it in music or in life..it is because of his never-say-die attitude tht made me stay strong n remain calm no matter what happens. he also taught me to be contented wif what i have but not forgetting to have the desire to acheive greater heights!:)Thank you for making such good music n at the same time be such a good role model for me.
As we look forward to a brand new 2010, lets' not forget what we have learnt in 2009.
Think positively, stay happy:D

加油！

p.s.just made a cheese cake! hope it is nice:)

2009-12-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!

season of love!

spend it with those u really care :D:D:D

jj lin yo..

2009-12-16T14:57:00.005+08:00

above is a compilation of jj's new songs:)
i guess i really have to say tht i really like this album alot! 收录在这张专辑的歌不仅仅是好听，但它也透露了jj这一年多来所经历过的..这也是我喜欢在每个歌手的专辑中看见的..唱出自己的故事，就是有不一样的感觉！
这张专辑以抒情歌为主.也许这也是jj擅长的所以才听起来有种舒服的感觉..有种真实的感觉吧..
我不敢说这张专辑是jj七张专辑中最好的，但它的确是较贴近jj生活的一张专辑:)

Recommended:
1) 第几个100天
2) 加油
3) 转动
4) 背对背拥抱
5) 跟屁虫 (to yuji: this reminds me of muthu! must listen to this song k!)

went topone with ben n candice yesterday:)yay! i think this should be the second last time i m gg ktv b4 a levels next yr..must focus on studies alrd..i wanna try to sing jj's new songs!damn difficult to sing leh..especially 无法克制>_<

trying to come up with a long post to conclude this entire yr:D

robot!

2009-12-11T20:01:00.001+08:00

i just think this is very cute! haha..

2009-12-11T02:50:00.001+08:00

最近很累..很累..

心累了..

很多时候，我们对周遭的人、事、物有了期望，但事实往往让你失望..当你决定放下时，他们又让你燃起希望..

这就是人生中的矛盾吧！

难道当初的那种感觉，只是一种幻觉..还是它已不复存在..

也许现在最重要的是搞好我的学业，其他的..是你的就是你的，不是你的，强求只会让自己更痛苦..

美丽的邂逅只存在在童话故事里吧！

100天过后，变得更坚强..还是..更脆弱？

momo international

2009-12-05T20:55:00.000+08:00

meet momo:)

super kawaii!

haha..even momo has a fanclub!go join! even non-jj's fans also must join!lol :D

THIS IS IT:)

100 days!

2009-12-02T22:38:00.001+08:00

我把爱铺成蓝天
让不安的妳一抬头就看得见
我把心烧成火焰
让怕黑的妳拥着温暖入眠

我晓得时间如雪有时候会覆盖一切
但是真爱一如倔强会重生的绿叶

第几个一百天还是很有感觉
用眼睛去素描妳内心的世界
第几个一百天也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵连命运都改变

曾有的敏感脆弱
在我的胸口你就躺下来别说了
将有的固执冲动
我也会拥抱妳安抚着体谅妳心疼着Wooh ~Wooh~

第几个一百天越来越有感觉
用眼睛去素描妳内心的世界
管过多少一百天也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵连命运都改变
当守护变信念连泪水都很甜

很喜欢这首歌的意境..那种执著..那种内心的感觉..甜甜的..有点朦胧，但又很明显！
珍惜:)

加油，符丽莲！

2009-12-01T15:39:00.000+08:00

转眼间, 又到了2009年的最后一个月了..
每年到了这个时候，我都会不由自主的想一想我一年前所订下的目标究竟完成了多少。
今年过得蛮充实的，完成了不少心愿 :)
还有一个月，剩余的目标会完成吗？

我期待..

2009-12-01T14:50:00.000+08:00

c2 gathering!

2009-11-29T14:33:00.000+08:00

4c2'08 gathering yesterday..
so jeannette, linda, qianying, eunice, ruyi, jessica, johanna n ms ho came(kristie came after lunch)
haha..planned to go sentosa actually..but in the end never larh..
just ate and walk ard in vivo..
ate at Marche:) nice food..nice ambience..but very ex D: they should consider having student packages yeah! haha..ate rosti with chicken cheese sausage:) NICE!
haa..we started teasing each other..damn funny! tried persuading ms ho to get a fb account so tht she will be updated abt all the scandals and stuff..in the end i think jeannette is gg to create on for her..haha!
yay! awfully choc after tht XD
then walk ard vivo for a while:)
lol..saw ko wif his friends on the way out of vivo..shouted for him a few times but no response.. haa..but he turned back after walking past me..lag larh!

2009-11-27T16:29:00.001+08:00

第一次是偶然，第二次是必然，第三次是命中注定！

2009-11-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

yeah, last day of lecture for the year! i guess i will miss the relaxed mood i m in for these 2 weeks..realy have to say tht although i had to come to skl for lectures, i enjoyed myself XD
holidays, here i come!
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原本感觉不那么真实
但当它变得越来越真实的时候
那也是离开的时候吧！
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100 days..
preview of jj's 7th album : http://www.wretch.cc/blog/jjfusion/15992424 :)
i want to go kbox again in dec or jan=D

spectacular! be the best!

2009-11-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

was watching live broadcast of prom nite for crescent's class of 2009 just now.. glad to see my juniors dressed up n all..still gg strong yeah!they all look so happy n excited for tonight:)

nostalgia..
yeah, ard this period of time last year.. i was like them^^relaxing after O levels..happy chilling out wif friends..yeah.. n like them, camwhoring ard:)
there seems to be so much to anticipate after graduating from crescent! haha..
yup..n the fond memories of days in crescent:D
these are the things tht make me smile..
these are the things tht make me tell myself LIFE IS GOOD N IT WILL GET BETTER!
these are the things tht motivates me!
time for celebrations, time for giving thanks and of course time for reflection too:)
enjoy urself tonite, juniors!
p.s. some how i realised tht crescentians still love to talk abt TAs..hai..i guess it is a crescent tradition ba..n ms loo pretty sia!

2012

2009-11-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

yay PW is finally over!!haa..it was better than expected larh..
watched 2012 yesterdawif surej, leonard,dhruv n yuji after tht..it was not as nice as expected..but i guess it is still worth watching larh:) the scenes in the movie are so devastating..imagine these scenes happening in reality..hai..speechless..
perhaps it is only in these times will ppl really think abt their loved ones..only in these times will they face their true feelings..only in these times will sacrifice for ppl they dont even noe.
the existence of courage tht no one thought they had!

2009-11-08T16:15:00.001+08:00

somehow, i prefer jj singing oldies..listen to ban meng ban xing at night..especially when u r alone..or when u r emoing..
nevertheless, looking forward to his new album!

ahhhhh

2009-11-08T11:55:00.000+08:00

PW is haunting me!!
perhaps i should get used to it..

motivation is all i need..

touched..

2009-11-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐
放下会走更远
又何必去改变
已走过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止我说再见
想象你在身边
在完全失去之前你说把爱渐渐
放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋
这一季的秋天飘落后才发现
这幸福的碎片要我怎么捡

was watching secret on channel u..yeah, touched by the movie again..人生历练的不足吧！

2009-10-31T18:54:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MAMA!

N HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO ALL!

N JIAYOU FOR MOTHER TONGUE A LEVELS

/PW OP!

Street culture yeah!

2009-10-31T18:36:00.000+08:00

i was watching the clips of JJ on razor tv just now..Thumbs up for JJ!
All i have to say is that i really admire his passion for what he believes in..his influencial ideology n stuff..basically the way he views things!i guess this is y i stick to idolising only one artiste for hmmmm..6 years!
i could really see JJ's maturity..from a shy boy-next -door kind of personality to one that is so eloquent n willing to share his thoughts so well..perhaps this is really part n parcel of growing up. I salute ppl who stands up for what they truly believe in. It takes more than words..it is in the actions:)
(Y)(Y)(Y) BELIEVE IN WHAT U BELIEVE IN!
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yup..it has been a while since i last updated..hmmmm.. it has been a busy week..at least for the first 3 days..rushed to finish up WR, laser print=spending lots of money, prep for OP slides, filming OP video..so to sum up, buzzing ard PW lor..
the irony, fri was super slack! was supposed to file GPF..but mr tan had some admin stuff to do n the whole class ended up watching Love Actually. Left skl at ard 12..went to cine n ate Shokudo (issit spelt like tht)..fulfilling!haha..
OP nxt week..6 nov. 10 days of hols after tht..woohoo!ppl, OUTINGS YEAH?
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i&r
i guess i should be thankful tht i m taking PW..if there is one thing tht i learnt from PW..it is really to stand firm in what i believe should be done..PW made me realise that there are many different kind of ppl in this world..when we thought tht alrd met all the different kinds of ppl..we r wrong!在我这十七年中，我遇见的只是一小部分的人。这世界存在着这么多等着我去发掘的东西。
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男生与女生的不同！女生比男生更男生，男生比女生更女生？

TWM

2009-10-19T18:46:00.000+08:00

so who is the Morrie in ur life?
TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE

2009-10-19T16:31:00.000+08:00

BLAH!

2009-10-19T16:02:00.000+08:00

well, more things happened..n i start to wonder if this is what u call kinship..oh..if it is..i guess i would rather not have any of tht..life has been good all these while. ur appearance just makes life difficult for me. if u dun like e way things r, just leave. i can gurantee tht life would be much better for me, n for u. since e day u gave up,there is no return.COS I DUN BELEVE IN GIVING SECOND CHANCES WHEN THIS MATTER IS CONCERN!
maybe u think tht u r not getting anything in return..but is this really important? i thought kinship is abt selflessness..so it is not? fine. just do what u r obliged to n leave, quickly..

PROMOTION!

2009-10-17T13:03:00.002+08:00

alrites..yesterday was..THE DAY..
haha..the release of results larh..
SUBDD..
not good at all.. but PROMOTED!
yay!haha..i was so worried for my results okay..especially after hearing rumours here n there.the worse one i heard was from mr chua..he said that the passing rank pts became 46! i was damn shock lor!
hindsight, i thought i would pass phy..hai..what's happening?really disappointed lor..n i realised tht i tend to do better for my h1 subjects then my h2s..hello?how can this be?i should do better in my sciences right?hai..i dunnoe larh..whatever it is, i think i should start studying soon..Alevels are not tht far away yeah..
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thursday..
self-reflection..
hmmmm..
how should i say this?
the things happening ard just made me think alot ba..i m just really proud of yuji n heewon..
yeah, really..那种敢于表达、争取的精神，我很欣赏:D
but perhaps 我永远都做不到..
我没有那种勇气，只能默默的守候吧！
虽然我们的人生掌握在自己的手中，我想有些是顺其自然就好吧。
我想，是你的就是你的，不是你的强求也没用。
回归自然最好=D

ps 跟着感觉走！

JJ so cute!

2009-10-10T17:22:00.002+08:00

2009-10-10T16:21:00.000+08:00

hoho...
bored..
maybe i should start doing my math tutorials=D
hmmmm..
e past wk hd been quite relaxing..except for wednesday..
had op prep, submission for i&r 2nd draft..needed to edit wr part 3 too>_<
haha..it felt like after promos when op prep as over!
oh started playing games which i havent touched for ages (eg bubble trouble, icy tower)
overall, PW=SLACKING!
Motivating wk, yeah!

it's all abt mindset..

2009-10-03T16:13:00.002+08:00

2009-10-03T11:44:00.000+08:00

okay!PROMOS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!! haha..had been looking forward to plans after promos when promos werent over...but when everything is over n u have so much time to spend..everything is just..boring..haha..
2 times of ktv+kbox=BROKE!
lol..really..but i guess i enjoyed myself ba..
well, when u have more time, u tend to think alot (but even when u dont have time, u will still start thinking alot too)
i was wondering whether this is really e life tht i really want..e more u want something to happen, e more hopes u pin on something or someone..e more disappointed u get when it just doesnt seem to work out..but when u r not hopeful abt something,how will u get motivated to make it happen..
要有平常心真的不容易啊！很多时候，我们一直劝别人要以平常心面对某些我们无法控制的事。但是，如果是我们自己遇到了这些事，情况就不同了。
有时候你不希望把自己的情感表现出来是因为你不想影响大家的心情，但在这过程中，你却伤害了自己..

酸..

ban qing ge

2009-09-12T15:33:00.001+08:00

~花接受凋零

风接受追寻

心的伤还有一些不要紧

我接受你的决定

你将会被谁抱紧

唱什么歌哄他开心

我想着天空什么时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱着一半的歌

你将会被谁抱紧

唱什么歌哄他开心

我想着天空什么时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱着一半的歌

我的明天快不快乐都是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

另一半的歌~

HAPPY 09/09/09!

2009-09-09T11:28:00.000+08:00

perseverance is all i need..
perhaps some encouragements too..haha

something is bothering me..but i dunnoe what is it..
life is getting more and more ironical

should i go BK to study later?

HAI.......

莫名的幸福

_________Being me_________